Who am I to tell God, what I need or what is good for me? I do not remember me saying, God. I know it is wrong, but I am going to do it.” I realized that I did tell God that in a roundabout way. I told him from my choices that are in direct conflict with his commands and teachings.
Furthermore, I recall when I experienced trouble, problems, pain, and suffering; I did run to God for help then. However, the help that I was seeking was temporary; I wanted the help but I did not want to really commit. I was using God as an ATM; the problem was; I was constantly making withdrawals of God’s Blessings and goodness, but not making any deposits to commit to serving him.