To my son, daughter and baby’s mother,
I want you to know that I was given two letters to read. One of my friends suggested that I read, “A letter to daddy”, and “Pay your child support daddy… and you too mommy”. I must admit as I read them I saw myself in those words. I felt the words jumping off the pages slapping some sense into me. I was emotionally touched by what I read. I had been awakened from being sleep, while I was awake. I am ashamed of what I have done and for not supporting you all.
I am not making any excuses or blaming you all for anything that I have done. I accept full responsibility. Those letters have convicted me of my past and present behaviors, and for the first time, I realized that I had not been a father nor behaving as a man. I have behaved immaturely. I abandoned my responsibility to you and your mother. I am sorry that I hurt your mother. I had to write you. I want to meet you all. I hope this letter will reach your hands.
All of these past months and years, I spent doing my own thing. I was not concerned about you or your mother’s well being until I read those two letters. I am not sure if you will read this, but if you have read this far, I want you to know that I want to be a part of your life. I know that I cannot back the hands of time. All I can do is to begin from the time when we finally meet. I want to meet all of you; to tell you why I abandon my family and what has happened since I fled.
I have so much to share. I want you to look me in my face and maybe you can perceive that I am telling you the truth about beginning a fatherly relationship. Words on a piece of paper cannot express how I feel and is not the same as in person.
Please forgive me and allow me a few minutes to talk to you all. Afterward, if you all do not want me in your lives, that is fine with me. I cannot make you do anything. Please contact me at the enclosed address. I will eagerly wait for your response. Let’s build a foundation together.